| KainAsylum ( @ 2009-07-13 22:04:00 |
| Entry tags: | therapy |
The Looking Glass Amplifier
"You're not a mirror, Kain."
"Then what am I?"
"You're a signal amplifier. A love freak. You absorb identities from those around you, and then you project the amplified identity back in their general direction. To the nice ones, you become a saint. The assholes see you as uber asshole. And the apathetic ones believe that you have a life that has no room for them. It's almost perfect."
"Almost?"
"Almost. You waste a lot of energy by collecting so many signals that your systems get internal interference. You have no sense of identity because your system is overloaded with all of the input you've been getting. That is why you've been such a recluse, lately... because you've stopped generating signals of your own. Focus on meaningful inputs. You'll be able to adopt a consistent identity and project a more focused signal that actually belongs to you. You've been focusing your reception on a lot of dead receivers. That energy goes nowhere. Hence, you are stretched thin and exhausted with very little to show for it."
"What does that mean?"
"It means... Quit fucking collecting and holding on to people as if they were goddamn Pokemons. You can't amplify all of those reflections without losing yourself in the process."
"Fuck you, Goodwill :)"
"Fuck you, too, Kain :)"